Probably just about the most boring entry ever.

February 19, 2005

Holy motherfucking shit, I am so completely bored out of my mind right now!

First of all, I just left the most un-breezy message ever on Mike's voicemail. I mean, it wasn't psycho or anything, it was just all, "I was just wondering what you're doing tonight (Note: it's 8:45 PM.. don't you think if he wanted to hang out, he would have called by now?) and umm I hope you're having a good time and ummm have a good day tomorrow and ummm good times for everyone!"

I don't really know about him. I know he likes me. I know he likes to hang out. And I also know he's a busy guy. But come on, can I at least get a courtesy call to let me know that he's going to be busy this weekend, but maybe we can hang out some time during the week? Maybe? Hello? Is this thing on? I miss the fucker. A lot.

The thing is, I need to be busier. Today I did some stuff.. I hung out at Ticketstock for a while and drooled all over myself whenever Gordo was around. I went to dinner with my dad, which was weird. We haven't had dinner by ourselves in like, 4 years. But I guess that's what happens when you break up with your fiance and then she flees to England for a week. I got to see the greatness that is Alf the puppy dog. I heart Alf.

I also bought some porn. It's just been that kind of week where on Saturday night, all you want to do is buy some porn.

But, that's it. No friend activities. No sign of any actual kind of social life. And honestly? It sucks. It sucks big fat cock.

Being so lonely on a Saturday night really shows me that I need to get cracking on my two biggest priorities: losing weight and making friends.

I've made finding a job such a high priority for the past year that I put making friends on the back burner, and now, I just really don't have a lot of them. I have me some Ali-Kat, but she's a busy lady. I haven't seen Scott in a long time because he's with his girlfriend a lot, and for some reason I think she's always hated me. My roommate is off on a romantic getaway with her boyfriend.

I have planted seeds for friendship at church, but that's not really working out too terribly well. It's fine on Sunday when I get to see them and catch up, but I never talk to them outside of that. So.. bah on that.

And losing weight.. that's just not happening. I really need to make a commitment, and soon. I think I've gained a lot of weight lately, and it's not making me feel very good about myself. My clothes fit for shit. I'm spending too much money on food. I'm drinking WAY too much Dr. Pepper. It's not pretty around here right now.

My four things that I always need to be working on contain the following:
1. Finding a good job.
2. Finding a nice boy.
3. Losing weight.
4. Making friends.

Now that I have #1 and some semblance of #2, that's good. But I still have the other two to really consider myself to be in proper working order.

You know?

Whatever, this is the most boring entry ever and I have porn. Have a lovely evening, Dland.