Chaos and Beaches and Ghosts

June 24, 2006

Hi. It's me, the person who never updates anymore. Remember me? Yeah.

So I had an interesting week at work. Interesting in that it sucked yet at the same time it ruled! ROCK ON!

It was pretty awesome because I got to work on 3 rocktacular movies, that being Cold Mountain (they only got ONE NIGHT together!!!), Robin Hood Prince of Theives, and..and...BEACHES!

Omg, you don't know how excited I was to do Beaches. Last week I was pretty happy to work on Kill Bill 2 (Wakey wakey, eggs and bakey!) but man, I've seen Beaches AT LEAST 200 times, and to get to work on it was just absolutely awesomely rocktastic.

But yeah, it also sucked. See, here's the fun story: a few weeks ago, there was a position open for the level above mine. I filled out the application but I left it at home and just assumed I'd bring it in later. On Monday, my boss called me in his office and asked me why I didn't apply for the position. I told him it was because I didn't know we had a time limit on it. Guess what? We did. Guess what? 3 people got the position and I did not. If I had applied, I would have gotten it. It's the highest level you can be without being a supervisor, and I deserve it. I've EARNED it. But unfortunately, I didn't apply for it and thus I did not get it.

The biggest kick in the groin of this situation was the 3 people who got it. I respect these people and think that, for the most part, they deserve it. But I have been there longer than 2 of them. And for this one chick that got it, I have never really understood why she's so respected anyway. Yeah, she's good, but her work is like...weird. And I've always been confused as to whether I should like her a lot or hate her a lot. Needless to say, this week I hated her a lot. Especially yesterday when she came in and tried to solve a problem of mine when I had already solved it, just because she has a title that's different from mine and now that means she can "boss me around."

But...I thought about it, and I talked to some people about it, and I got a different perspective, and I'm coming to terms with it. When it comes down to it, it's easy to blame everybody but me for my failings. Obviously I've had a long history of procrastination and in this one case, it truly fucked me over. This is my fault, pretty much %100.

That being said, it still sucks and it still makes me crazy that I don't get the recognition that I deserve just because I didn't fill out an application. I work my ass off at this job and everybody knows that. I mean, damnit!

In other news: I'm going on vacation in a week! YAYA! I am looking forward to seeing my mommy but I am also looking forward to seeing to bright lights of Vegas, along with spending many mind-numbing hours staring at cards in a smoke-filled casino.

I can't really tell if Josh is excited, really, because the first part of the trip will be spent looking at beautiful parks in the wilds of Utah and bonding with parents. But that is okay. We will have a good time even if it kills us!

We just had our 6 month anniversary. I think that's pretty hardcore, don't you?

In other news, predictably, I'm just really doing a horrible job of keeping my body from looking like a bloated sack of bananas. Or something else that looks fat. I mean...I really just love eating. A lot. And I did a lot of overtime this week which means I only got to the gym once. It sucks. I suck at looking good. It's annoying. Also, my apartment is a total mess and my car really needs to be washed. It's nice to live in total chaos.

Last week my dad and I went to the horse races for a little quality Father's Day time. I won a little bit of money, it was neato. But when I go to the track, there's a lot of down time between races, so I brought my book. This book, Baby Proof by Emily Giffin, was so damn good! And her other 2 books, Something Borrowed and Something Blue...they are both so friggin good. I always read her books in one day because she's just an awesome writer. Sure, chick lit, blah blah blah, but seriously, check it out. She is my new favorite, seriously.

I'm still obsessed with Ghost Hunters. Have I mentioned that new obsession yet? Yeah. It's on the sci-fi channel and I can't seem to get enough. Josh and I watched 5 episodes straight on Thursday night. It's yummy!

Anyway, yeah, I think that about covers it. Always remember to rock on, and such.