The same damn day I've been talking about for 6 years now!

January 20, 2008

Those of you who have read my bullshit for any number of years know that I like to commemorate the losing of my virginity on January 20th, 1997. Well, that day has come again, my friends. Oh, yes it has. 11 years ago today. Here are some past entries I've made about this interesting event:

From 2003...

Okay, let's move on. Picture it: January 20th, 1997. I have the day off from school because it's Martin Luther King Day.

His dad brought him over, he brought us McDonalds, we watched Clinton's inauguration and then we went into my room to mess around. He had been talking about sex a whole lot lately, but I wanted to wait because we hadn't even been together 2 months, and my rule for myself was that I'd wait 3 months.

Well, kids, I lost my virginity 6 years ago today. Doesn't that bring a tear to your eye? Here's an actual excerpt from my diary at the time -

January 20th, 1997 -

Something important happened today. A turning point my life, actually. It was pretty fucking cool.

Today I had sex.

Some things to know about sex:

1. It hurts like a bitch when you do it for the first time
2. It hurts less the 2nd time
3. You bleed
4. It feels good.
5. Yep.

Yes, I had sex. The one thing that had separated me from Ali-Kat. The 1 thing that me and Old Friend spent hours talking about, what I have been dreaming of for 4 years. I did it. With the person that I love more in this world, Josh.

But I don't regret it. I don't love him any less. Or more. I thought I would feel all attached and obsessed, but not really. (Nope, that comes later.) I don't really feel any differently about the relationship except for that fact that it's stronger now and it will be a hell of a lot harder to break up.

(And then blah blah blah, details you really don't want to know.)

And from 2 years ago...
I have documented this day every year in this here diary, and I shall do it again today. It's just that today, it's especially...important? Surreal? Weird? Awesome? I don't know the word for it exactly.

January 20th has always been burned in my brain since the day it happened. I was 17. Josh and I had been getting pretty intense in the relationship and that's where it was heading anyway. We lost our virginity to each other and I really dig that. If he had been with someone else before me it wouldn't have meant as much.

So, here we are again. He's going to come over tonight and we're going to umm celebrate the anniversary. I know it's strange, I know it doesn't make sense, I know that I feel like it won't last forever, but right now none of that matters to me. We're okay right now. We're working things out as they come along. It works well that way.

I do have to say, it is interesting and sort of lovely to be with the person I lost my virginity to. And this whole entry is TMI, yes, but here's more: I have had more sex with Josh than I've had with anyone else ever. And it's good. It's real good, y'all.

We were watching Juno last week (I love that movie, I sincerely love it sooo much) and neither of us had to ask that question, "So what was your first time like?" 'Cause we were both there. There have obviously been others for both of since then, but it's just nice. It's an interesting thing to share. There are a lot of strange things about our relationship, but at least we have that to look back on.

Other weekend stuff:
- Speaking of living in a time warp, my dad is taking his ex ex ex girlfriend to Italy tomorrow. We all went to the farm this weekend and he was kissin' her and laughing with her and reminiscing with her, and that's all fine and lovely. I like her. She's the one with the casino in Reno, so that might work out well for me in the long run. It's just weird because not more than a month ago, he was laughing and kissing and giving the last girlfriend thousands of dollars worth of Christmas presents. My dad's a charmer, y'all, what can I say?

Also, got to see Charlie, and that's never a bad thing. He's the cutest dog in the world and don't try to tell me different.

- Spent today doing basically nothing, but I did manage to get off the couch and work out for almost 2 hours. It felt good.

I also watched all 3 episodes of Cashmere Mafia. It's not a bad show. A good one, actually.

- That is all.